My name is Yin, and I am the founder of mybespokegf. I have been working in the custom sex doll industry for ten years.

I had just started college that year and met my first love. She was quiet and delicate, and we spent many tender moments together memorizing The Song of Long Hate and discussing Li Bai. But our relationship was as entwined and unstable as poetry, eventually splitting up with no end in sight.

Her best friend, Z, is a completely different type of person: lively and real, with a laugh that has the power to break down worries. When my first love and I were at our most rocky, Z was always there for me. Then we interned together for two years, doing design and proofreading in the daytime, eating snacks and talking about ideals at night, and our lives were intertwined bit by bit. Gradually, there was a subtle affection between us, but we never said anything.

Later I went to Shanghai, she stayed in Shenzhen. On the night she left, she invited me to dinner, drank wine and said, “If you meet a good-looking girl over there, don’t come back to me.” I smiled and said yes, but in my heart it was like I had lost something.

We slowly broke contact like many old acquaintances. Until many years later, she suddenly sent a message, saying that when she heard an old song, she suddenly remembered me, but also remembered our feelings that were not considered a relationship. She said: actually never really forget me.

At that moment, a huge regret turned up in my heart – it’s not that we didn’t have the possibility, but we just got separated too early.

Not all love can arrive, but some people, once into the heart, will be placed for life.

During that time, I always dreamt of her. She laughed and said, “You’re so annoying”; when I woke up, there was only the ceiling. I began to lose sleep. One day, I made an impulsive decision: to customize a silicone doll to look like her.

I actually resisted it, and at first I thought it was an escape, a compromise with reality. But when I opened the box and saw the face that almost overlapped with my memories, there was an indescribable peace and tenderness, something I hadn’t felt in years.

I began to delve into craftsmanship, from simulating skin and bone structure to hand spraying makeup and sculpting expressions. I wanted to recreate her look as much as possible, not to “replace” her, but to mend the cracks of a certain emotion. It’s a dialogue between me and my past, my regrets, and some unattainable “possibilities”.

In 2015, I officially founded MyBespokeGF, a custom doll studio that specializes in “giving shape to fantasy”. From the initial self-healing to helping countless people express their loneliness, longing, and memories, I have grown to believe that this is not an escape, but a more authentic expression of emotion.

Some love doesn’t disappear, it just quietly exists in a different way.

Today, MyBespokeGF has been around for ten years.

MyBespokeGF is not only my own story, it also carries the unfinished business of many people. Behind every doll there is a story, some of them are regrets, some of them are imaginations, and some of them are the tenderness in the late night that no one knows. From my first days of self-healing to helping countless people express their loneliness, longings, and memories, I have become increasingly convinced that this is not a cop-out, but rather, the most naked and honest language of emotion. As I often say:

“Not every love blossoms, but every fantasy, deserves to be taken seriously.”